9:43 PM
Heyzz... today is the day b4 exams... haizz edevice not yet finish studying... my mental is like totally very thrashed up... very messy now... dun know wth i want... and wat i dun... wat i want to study wat i dun want to.. lOLX mess up...
ok... been rather busy with afew games for the past 2 days... i dun know why.. hahaha... didn't study no mood again... study alot lately... screwed up myself alot also... i broked alot of my usual lifestyles..
dun know why
i don't like to play games liao..
no interest in soccer...
dun feel like sleeping...
end up studying... -_- <--- dun know why..
my friends also say i siao liao.. yup i think i siao liao
haha in alan tag i mention b4
I lose skills everyday....
I lose myself everyday...
I lose my mind everyday...
I lose my Life everyday....
I lose to you everyday...
I lose to everyone everyday...
I lose my social life everyday...
I lose u most importantly...
soo i can bracket everything....
into ( I LOSE EVERYDAY )
well study half way thr my edevices... trying to finish up asap...
maybe can pei sophia DA JIE to ps for the super band thingy...
really really really sry... not tat i dun want to go.. i really have to finish my studies first =X
lately didn't really happened much...
but something REALlY ReALly joker happened tat is weisian stuff..
well such things not going to be said at my blog.. but later on if got more time maybe ba...
haha something really happened while i was typing this blog...
my clothes hanging outside of the house all drop because of the wind... i had to run down and get it.. and 1 stuck at the ledge at lvl1... well thanks to my neighbour tat they help my take it back.. =P
at first i tot wah if im my mum i wun bother.. but wat to lose just open ur mouth only and ask..
sometimes a chance is given to u.. ONLY if u open ur mouth and ask for it... sometimes is u urself assume tat there wun be any chance... but u never know if u never asked... a chance might drop out from the sky without the person having any effort been used... but most of the time... a chance is EARN after u made an effort...that effort comes in the form of asking, doing somethings or maybe just been nice and reply...
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11:05 PM
Well well well.. been awhile ive blogged...
Haha shutting myself off from my social world.. need to really concentrate in studies...
well doing tat... ive to reject alot of things like soccer and gaming...
haizz feel like quitting soccer and gaming for good.. lost interest liao..
consider me dead... LOLX
after my knee cap injury i dun feel like doing anything sia... i know the injury is a small case ... but i can't get any str out.. ARGH!!! *anger*
maybe after my exams ill join u all for soccer ba.. slowly train back..
2ndly... gaming.. i dun have godly touches in game liao... HAIZZ!!!! tat one is instincts cannot train one.. WHY GOD must deprive me from my talents... =(
3rdly ... felt soo dead still LOLX
ok back to blogging and not whinning..
haha past 2 days want to study.. but can't force myself to study... i take the notes and STARE and ZZZ
LOLX when i woke up its like 11pm in the nite.. HAIZZZ sadded.. soo i go play rakion with alan.. DDamn u desmond.. dun want to call in and conf.. haha... lazy ass...
well well well... today Valentine day.. i wish all of u couples out there happy and be safe =X
haha.. cause i dun have one.. *stop asking* haha...
well later going to study.. yup with my friends... soo lets hope junyi will come down and look for me ba... need ur help with mATHS!!!... come on *begs to god* <--- which i dun
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9:48 AM
WOohooo The embarkment of no projects... but the ending of no projects is the beginning of something else.. EXAM TIME!!!
STRESSS!!!!... Wow mr calvin first time say STRESS.. Weird hor..
LoLx dfund... SHAGGED..
i got the answers le.. i go cancel them and write the wrong ones..
haha... Anyway.. then later on JAVA!!! wah hand up report...
waitting in class for the teacher sooo long... watching smallville on my HP...
STRUGGLING to watch LOLX ... screen soo small... lolx.. but at least i get to finish up my 1st episode ...
Then at last my turn to present my java to teacher...
he suddenly ask me wats e.getsource() i was like BLANK!!! OMG i dun know haha
i felt like this starting of the year everything flashs by soo fast... i dun know wats happening around.. i dun feel like studying liaozz... everything like i dun know wat is happening too
haizz... all my subjects i dun know wth am i studying about.. ... soo empty
anyway back ... haha when into DR PREM lessons... Give us attuide again.. im like very easily got pissed off..
my friend aliman ask him a question he give AP
i LUN.. then another time.. he give AP answers i LUN then next give AP face..
i dulan i ask him the question again.. he give ap answer i dulan i give him AP replys...
i copy finish liao want to leave.. but he got test paper to give out... damn LOLX
if not i ready to leave liao..
i think i going to post it up to mr LOW .. haha..
AFter his lessons desmond,me,cheeleng,raymond,jashua went over to watch a vollyball match.. LOLX
soo nice to watch th B'Boys play.. Soo fast pace.. soo nice..
then looking at JYSS playing with CCH .... all daoster.. no one is friendly.. o well.. haha
then saw shaoying .. say hi to her only.. -_- all soo hostile.. anyway... put up a nice game...
and jess take care of ur leg... ur struggling inside...
then afterwards.. watch PRSS game.. desmond stead is playing inside... lolx...
hmm they play better =X
then looking at NUMBER 11 from PRSS... HAha her calf mucles is like nice.. got train de.. bigger then urs leh desmond.. LOLX
then after tat.. went over to macpherson road to pei desmond collect his pay with his friend...
hmm then when for an interview.. WOOOHOO got job liao.. no more Slacker honor..
service line AT LAST!!! at LAST i can USE MY MOUTH to earn money.. haha
then came back to tampines for dinner... ate LJS... AIYO forgot to top up my card.. LOLX
later .. desmond and his gay friend go off first.. as bg and bh came.. pei them to eat.. then go back.. i want to watch im not stupid 2.. but im freaking tired... just reach home ZZZZZZ
IM REALLY SRY HY REALLY really sry.. sorry... i accidently over slept... really really sry leh.. forgive hor
sry guys 3 days in the row... i slept less then 10 hours
dozed off in class more then twice =X
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2:11 AM
Argh... stupid eye .. got scratch on sat... then eye keep closing.. very tired dun know why.... important lessons keep sleeping.. should deserve a SLAP instead
Hmm today early morning.. woke up saw lawence (turtle) and charmaine at the bus stop.. Sry charmaine .. lolx talking with lawence... never talk to u...
later on when into maths lecture.. wah teach the stuff.. should be easy.. but i dun know.. all BLANK BLANK!!! i copy copy copy only.. die must start studying liao
haha tat is why i monday go buy my new pencil BOX!! woohoo got a pencil box liao...
then alan nl they all was like.. WTF calvin with pencil box?... rare..
hmm because mr calvin here is going to start studying liao..
then later on.. planned with desmond go pei him watch vollyball after school .. i was thinking go there earlier.. but he dun want.. soo nvm lor...go there after maths tut...
and well i slept at maths tut too.. see wat i mean by i deserve a slap...
Mr honor ar mr honor.. seems to lost himself liao.. firstly, no mood to study... do stuff half hearted... sleeping all the time.. bo chap bo chap attuide..
lolx.. and today SRY bro... really sorry leh alan...
haha i leg itchy.. go do a trick on the bottle on the floor.. and i pulled it and chipped over my back to my front.. and flew and hit alan by the head.. =X wo wu xing de..
Anyway later on after school, when over to the sports complex with desmond.. checking out his stead having a match with duman high... Well.. typically pasir ris played well... several nice balls.. but then just lack of a very good tactical play.. duman high stand on a higher end..
well i saw the first set only.. which duman won by 25 - 21
Duman played well... and better tactic too.. <--- not bad game anyway... have a fair share of excitement on both sides...
then desmond have to go for his jap reharseral.. soo i go back liao.. the ones i want to see is not there anyway.. haha =X must had missed out liao
ok i have to go rush my TCS presentation liao.. but first i go ZzZzeesss off for a moment.. head very heavy... <-- see wat i mean... deserve a slap right? haha
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11:26 AM
YAwn.. Woke up from a mj session yesterday...
2pm in the afternoon.. SOoo tired...
haha.. got up and found out.. im going out to bai nian to my aunties they all
my mummy side ones... sooo complicated soo many rankings.. zzzz
haha got into the car started to listen to Season in the sun by westlife..
haizz..
then reach hougang liao.. got out of the car... my knee cap made a "cracking sound"
sadded
haizz
then while walking i felt my knee cap was weak.. and sometimes it shaked abit
very sad liao
whole day my knee cap is been weak weak weak..
hurts still
then later on.. rush back to watch TV... haha
shows...
anyway sophia ur sooooo fierce.. ZZzZz
=X
then my pc tio SPYWARE or dun know wtf is this.. pop ups..
i tried everything sia
ad-ware , spybot s&d, a-squared, pcpitstop, pro uninstaller, even hjiackthis. also cannot..
now still having pop ups... (not porn pop ups) (some fuck up sad company which can't sell their product)
cfm is tio backdoor and worm... i found their backdoor.. i deleted it.. but it appeared again..
i can't detect their fucking worm.. ZZZZ
trying to get more anti virus stuff
haizz my body is breaking down... my computer is breaking down
... im feeling soo fucked up
my kneecap, ankle, eye, head, stomach, now even my jaw? WAH lao
then my pc is soo fucked up
haizz
later 8am going to see doctor and get an X-Ray.. hope i've nothing wrong..
well i think maybe i gotta quit soccer for good soon liao
kinda of feeling like.. very sank and very sad...
but i dun reflect it de.. everyday wearing a mask.. a happy one.. ^_^
feeling down and the lowest now.. but no one to pei wo...
on top of that.. got daosterz... =(
sadded sadded ...
why mr honor why? why ur like tat?
haizz i feel like just maybe just tear out my sadness..
but i dun tear... =(... not even one..
even on friday the 13th.. (sry) (im more cornern about u then myself tearing)
how how how.. haizz
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3:53 AM
Today early morning... Woke up... ZzZZz... was like.. OMG SHAGGED... tired...
then got off my bed and felt my knee cap.. .O FUCK.. PAIN!!!
wah the same old problem again... yesterday nite play with rowdies they all.. air kicked when i was about to ram.. ZZZ pain sia...
soo got my bro out help twist here and there.. haha
but still pain...
then got ready for school...
open the door liao... found out.. OMG.. boon bike.. need to ride it to school
haha loc kok bike..
soo noisy.. then back tire also got problem.. ZZZZ
its killing me sia riding his bike... soo much strength needed to peddle.. but move abit HAHA... crazy liao..
reach school liao.. did my psycho test... pass up my TCS stuff..
then when over boon house throw his bike there..
then got my bro to drive me to his game..
ZZZ my knee cap is killing me
then change my gear liao... wahaha... GODLY!!! not used to wearing boots and play.. PLay left back... haha but chiong one ... haha
got 2 chance for me... at the first half...
first half i dribble... lob pass 1 person... dribble past my half... and then 3/4 court then cross in... nearly score for my team de striker.. damn.. haha
then while playing soccer... eye pain.. eye soo pain..
after tat... i got the ball dribble.. and infront of goal post liao.. damn the CB cut in... and my left foot step on his leg... and i fall down.. -__ -SWAY!!! ZZZZZ then my ankle pain ... and scratch my butt ZZZZZ my lump of meat.. haha
zzz later on 1 far cross from my midfield.. make me run like dog... end up.. the gk clear the ball smack my face.. PAIN!!! i fall to the ground and cover my face.. but the ref never blow ... damn i was expecting something.. then i quickly stand up and run.. HAHA =X
hmm after that 2nd half i play forward... HAHAHA =X for a defender good right? =P
i got the ball pass to the CF and he kanna tackle i sian.. i go for the ball.. they anyhow clear.. OLE ME!!! -_- i dulan...
later kick off... i got the ball i OLE the person back...
then 2nd person come.. i OLE a through pass.. LoLx
ok enough of my soccer game liao.. Haha because i got a tyco ball from their defender miss clearance which i got the ball and shot miss an open goal from 30 yards like that -_- *hides* haha
later on.. got to go for prawn noodles.. YUMMY!!! 5 dollars per bowl... ouch...
but lucky my bro pay
hAHA =X
eye pain still.. haizzz
reach home liao... play dota... feeling soo depress and very disappointed haizz... sry i ap-ed during the game or anything
Later on zZzzZz
soo i just got home from my eye optical shop.. and got my eye checked...
got a scratch... -_- pain pain.. resto my eyeso.. =P
haizz let me just floatz around.. if i happened to very bad or very fierce sry...
just because im getting daoed not only by her but everyone.. zZzz junyi daoz... sophia daoz...
alot other daoz... must mention those 2 names =P haha make them guilty.. =P they are going to hurt me
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11:15 AM
For 3rd Feb 2006
LoLx today woke up at 8am.. gone to school for PCBDES test.. its like go school for test like 1hour only.. haizz stupid circle can't draw it out..
when i draw the circles out liao... my settings wrong.. ZzZzz
did the whole adding of part 5 times..
that jashua keep complaining can't do.. how to help sia -_-
Anyway after test.. when for edevice lec...
i was like.. woohoo soo excited can see jess and friends play vb match for once.. well i think its the one and the only le ba<> ... =(
well today desmond was kind enough to pei wo go... but end up when for jap rehersal.. pang seh me...
lucky saw yong sheng.. started to talk talk around...
somemore must livescore update on pasir ris sec for desmond...
haha..
saw jess today... well for once... (hey of course i still have feelings still soo stfu if u want to comment on it) ( i dun entertain such shit... esp from u albert)
i also dun know how to say.. its just tat feeling confused and dun know why lar...
O ya... then For huiying.. haha... since she always soo free de.. i jio her pei wo go see see... anyway soo close to her club room... she fly over to meet me after meeting with her stead... haha
hy: see i use FLY!!! u fly over
errr as for marianam or something <--- sorry i dun know how to spell ur name... beat me all u want.. haha... then after pasir ris sec match liao.. desmond then appear... -_- then chase huiying away LOLX!!! =X bad right? then saw jess, stef, shenny, eileen and their cap on the starting line up... dunman high looks strong leh... i still think... jess: sry =X they looks strong... or maybe they just played very well today then after jyss match... still got like 15 mins b4 my lesson starts.. watch the cboys on the other side... dun know who vs who... haha.. looks nice.. then walk over to say hi to hendi... Hizzz haha then saw the vb team walked pass.. i was expecting at least a hi.. well ive none... very disappointed... seriously very disappointed... after tat... while walking i was thinking and thinking... took a short cut directly to lt42 meet up with alan... when into the class still thinking... haizz... disappointed... *shakes head* whole lesson i dun know wtf am i doing.. taking down rubbish and missing out important stuff still thinking doh... -_- Then took the bus back home... later have to go alan house study psyco... because tml i got test... and i am still blogging at 3.30am.. and tml i have to wake up at 9am... ZZZZZZ Garang sia me... anyway listen up to several songs... blasting music.... (at times i pity my neighbour sia... ) then took a bath... took my time slowly touch here and there... 6pm go alan house study... haha.. wasted like 1 and a half hours then later study come back and rest for soccer... while going back... im kinda of still thinking and feeling alittle depress le... depression... -__- psycho disorder... under major disorders as mood... to treat must go thr cognitive cures... as to set out my ideas straight... haha... but how i hope i can go thr the medical cure... not by drugs.. but by cutting up my brain and sending 70-150 volts into it... and numbing it... LOLX <--- weird hor... BUT IS TRUE!!! GOT LEH.. in my text book (errrmmm alan textbook) Collect my contact lens... planning to DA bao for dinner... then walk walk walk with my mummy and talk... then FORGOT TO BUY!!! omg till now im like straving still.. hungry..... ZzZZzZ 11pm when over for soccer... then got a bunch of st hidas guys come over and challenge soccer.. soo bring it.. today i played soo bad.. never RAM LEH!!! till ending.. i got 1 chance.. WEISIAN BLOCKED AWAY!!! dulan liao.. angry liao... i chiong.. haha i got the ball.. they trip me... i still got the ball... I RAM!!! block... but the ball fly soo high .. haha they keep saying sorry sorry... scared sia their face.. -_- i where got soo fierce.. i just like to ram only.. maybe i feeling depressed i played badly... u all know... b4 friday the 13th... everything seems soo good leh... even play lac lac soccer.. i also can perform soo well.. well now.. as a cap of kuku.. and not performing.. ill just stfu and fuck off... well late liao.. fucked up person... fucking off... GONEE!!!!! ZZZZ TEST wish me luck guys / galz / gays / botch / aliens / weird peoples / weird shitz / last but not least everybody else... haha
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5:47 AM
Been overseas for 3 days
lolx...
29jan2006
On the way back home... we stop at the R&R... took some nasi lemak... man their food sux ... totally sux.. my dad and bro ate liao when to toliet... haha... for me.. i Lun till reach back home which is around 3 hours later...
SOO far sia the trip...
Lolx reach Home le.. end up eatting again... man i just love their kampong chicken... soo tasty... love em...
ate soo much.... bloated again.. haha..
while eatting all my aunties head started to pop out at the side of face... and say " who is this sia" ... im like.. -_-... then i turn around they suddenly let out a "ORHHHHH" ... haha
buai ta han.. soo funny..
all say i change soo much this and that... o.O malu sia...
Later on... my cousins all came back... haha my cousin car is SOO power... torque soo high.. driving back into the garage was like... BROOOM!!! power... can feel it even if ur inside the house...
then all the younger genaration kids came back... they are all... looking at me... -_- im like an alien for the day... haha after awhile they started to jio me for big2...
then talk talk abit lor...
founded out that there is a new shopping mall open at sermeban there... JustCO...
nice mall.. alot of stuff... and big also...
later in the evening when there to walk afew rounds lor...
then at nite.. came back for blackjacks...
well i lost my ang bao money... lost 30rm sia.. left 9rm LOLX sian 1/2
then go out play fireworks
30jan2005
had a bad nite... didn't really slept very good i hate the pillow.. miss my pillow at home.. HEy my pillow is comfy lor godly good<--- haha well in kampong... morning and afternoon just do nothing... soo when out walk walk lor when behind the kampong and see see... thinking about stuff.. then my bro jio me out bring her gf to go see the whole kampong and the rubber plantation... well alot in my mind.. took the auto de motorbike... haha ITS soo FUN sia... but i never check the oil... -_- when till like soo far liao... no oil... stuck in the middle of no where... HAHA scared... somemore never bring hp or anything... lucky my bro when back grab a bottle of petrol... because its like very little only.. end up need to take the main road out.. <--- WARNING: the main road only for license people lor.. and i dun have helmet... bo pian.. chiong take it still (heng heng no police see) haha drove very fast hit 90kmph overtake cars somemore.. SOO FUN!!! i want to learn MOTORBIKE!!!! auto even easier no clutch all those.. just turn trottle FLY!!! haha when back home... everyone was like.. LOLX... -_- malu.. LOLX last time first time learn motor i buang de pole.. lucky i siam fast LOLX... and they LOLX at that time.. well when back did nothing.. just sit around thinking again... in malaysia.. soo close yet soo far.. i was thinking of fated or not to see each other there.. well ^_^ it didn't then near evening time.. all jio me go play blackjack again... haha this time i won back 70rm WOOHOO!!! rich liao... then let my bro take over.. then got another 55rm WOOHOO!!!! richer... haha later in the day... we when over to KL for shopping... well spent 10rm on train ticket... but go KL didn't buy anything.. -_- go there EAT my 15rm
Then my Desert
haha eat alot zz...
then when back home... stupid train station the ticketing thing never open... LOLX have to climb out...
stupid KTM service.. but i got their card to keep... LOLX
later on... my cousin drove his proton with Turbo engine to drive us back... WOW a 20mins drive end up a 5mins only... turbo kick ass.. WOOHOO!!! fast sia... suddenly BAM... FLY!!! haha...
i also want 1 of those.. ...
reach home liao... play blackjack for awhile.. then go sleep...
this time.. slept outside at the hall... LOLX soo many insects
31jan2006
woke up in the morning.. found a cricket beside my face.. -_- LOLX cute insect
woke up liao dun feel like moving.. thinking of stuff... then i heard beside me ... my cousin is talking on the hp ... LoLx... well i dun disturb him too.. soo i tidy the bed.. when for a wash up... then as usual pack up eat breakfast... then get ready to go back..
usual practise.. b4 going back i have to pay my respect to my ansectors... and sayang the dog at the front door... the back.. and the cute little dog with short legs at the back.. LOLX...
then when to the chickens and say goodbye... lolx.. and when behind the kampong and look around the durian trees.. then go off liao.. haha cute right me? =X
well while going back .. stop at dun know where... (because sleeping didn't see stop where) then ate seafood... ate crabs WOOHOO.. LOLX tasty..
the lime juice sux..
honest i dun like they mix with sour plum LOLX
then reach home liao.. never ate dinner.. i chiong go take a bath then meet up with huiying for dinner...
kfc.. cheap cheap nice... haha
then when home play dota with ah fat... zzz
play till like 2am.. i planning to go liao... go zzz.. then suddenly noticed WED whole day class cancelled.. nothing in the morning only afternoon got CDS... i happy happy go play till 6am with ah fat LOLX...
1feb2006
Hmmm woke up liao... chiong go cds do presentation ... Hertic day.. alot of stuff to do...
then found out alan sick.. 2days mc... ok ba.. friday i pei u go CDS...
see i soo BROTHER... quick BOW!!! lolx =X
then when home for steamboat with family... then go hy house again... -_-
i never buy psycho book... 32 bucks leh.. x... borrow from her do notes... got test later
then finish 1 CHAPTER only... got like 5 more to go...
then end up go play soccer AGAIN!!!
always like tat de...
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play with rowdies... run run run ..damn eat too much feel like shitting... haHaha..
then wei tong elbow my stomach... its like DAMN!!! OUCH!!! worst.. feel like vomiting and shitting
LOLX... lun abit.. finish game liao...
why? because police chase us away...
then kuku stay behind... everyone leave liao....
we play another game.. haha this time.. 3 POLICE car drove in... we was like WTF.. RUN!!! chiong.. siam.. haha BG run soo fucking fast sia... in game not like he will run soo fast.. LOLX or maybe because i tired liao.. run damn slow...
then meet up at 7-11 ..then go back
then today 2feb2006
hmmm slept at 5.30am woke up at 8am shagged sia... when into class also shagged face.. LoLX
then lessons as usual... till edevice... knn dr prem give us ap...
i dulan i see liao also knn
then i talk back liao...
talk soo much cock.. WTF sia JFET we heavn't learn...
want us to copy answerS?
then say we wat wat wat... -_-
we heavn't learn... dun understand copy wat? copy the words? learn how to spell JFET?
haha
then he give ap say want to cont lessons or wait for us to learn liao then start tut....
he say wat no time all those
then i chap him back... soo u want us to copy word by word and dun understand wat we are copying?
then he talk cock again.. then i say... sir no time already... can go thr
then he ap give lan lan face.. dun want to talk....
then i chap.. sir u want to go thr ?
then he open his bloody mouth and talk...
whole lessons he dun dare give me eye contact... he try i dao back
-_- make me dulan...
this year 2nd time dulan
lolx 1 sem dulan 1 time.. haha but i think this time my fuse very short liao
then got home and ZzzZ sleep and rest.. .. sian tml pcb test... well wish me luck
my edevice i got 14/30 OMG!!! STUDY STUDY STUDY!! sian sian sian
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